1. The resurrection: losing your old self to become your true self

Certain patterns have been playing out in your life – whether in relationships, career, health, finances or elsewhere – and you are over it. You recognise that to change your circumstances, you must change yourself. To experience what you’ve never known, you must become someone you’ve never been. 

Sometimes shifts happen and you’re catapulted into a new reality, seemingly without any effort. You feel no need to talk to that person who was draining you anymore. You don’t cut them off or overthink it. You simply don’t have it in you to engage; you’re finally choosing yourself. At an earlier point, you tried to pull away with great effort and couldn’t stay away. But this time, it’s as easy as breathing. 

Or perhaps you used to smoke toxic sticks (cigarettes). One day, while walking, you threw the cigarette in your hand away and have never looked back. Or it might be red wine: one fair evening you took a sip of your favourite wine, didn’t like it, and realised you no longer drink alcohol. 

Other times, shifts don’t happen as easily. Sometimes your ego clings to the outgrown for dear life, literally. 

I began this year ready to step more fully into my power as a divine, sovereign being. I wrote a manifesto, so inspired and powerful [read it here], but didn’t realise what lay ahead. It has been a year. Really, it has been a few years. Perhaps my entire life. And I don’t mean that in a ‘bad’ way. I mean it in a stretched, tested, and grown way. Largely content, but also at times challenged by the fact that my life hasn’t looked the way my ego imagined: more like the people around me, more conventional. 

Anyway, to be your true self, you need to lose your old self. By this, I mean, you need to shed all the layers of programming and conditioning that disconnect you from who you really are. Put differently, you need to die. Parts of you, all of you… whatever life calls for at any given time. That is the path to a more meaningful life, and it doesn’t end. As long as you’re here, there is more to work through. There is no destination. 

The first step is recognising the beliefs that keep the current version of you alive, and then changing them. For example, you may like what you do professionally, but hate being bound to the hours of 9-5 or tied to a particular location. Still, you believe that ‘that’s just how life is’, so carry on with a touch of misery for all of your days. You don’t realise other options are available to you until you open to them, believe your preferred way of living is possible, and do your part to make it a reality. The covid pandemic offered this revelation to humanity; it showed people other ways of being and living.

Or maybe you hate what you do for work altogether, but stay on that path because you believe it’s the only way for you to exist in the world. Or you’re in a romantic relationship that looks perfect on paper, your mind and everyone around you says it’s fantastic, yet it doesn’t feel completely right. You hold on because your partner is wonderful, and because you have a not necessarily fully conscious belief that no better match exists. 

Your partner could indeed be great, and still not be completely right for you. Your unease is a signal from you to you that you’re out of alignment and would be better off honouring yourself, which might mean being single. In honouring yourself, you create space for a more fitting match, who might be someone new or a different version of your current partner that arises when you are true to yourself. 

In facing the beliefs that limit you head on, and shedding the parts of you that subscribed to them, parts of you die, sometimes while kicking and screaming. Those deaths give way to the new. Your ego resists because it prefers the known and comfortable. The limitless potential of the unknown is far too scary. 

When the shedding happens on a larger scale, you emerge completely different. Sometimes this happens slowly, other times all at once. Or maybe it simply feels slow when going through it all. 

So, what then? What happens after the you-that-was is gone? The resurrection. 

Without the weight of programming and conditioning, you become attuned to who you truly are and why you’re here. Your ego might still intermittently cry out for the old familiar because the unknown feels frightening. But what the unknown really is, is limitless. 

You are free to create from the zero point, where any and every possibility exists in ways your mind could never imagine. You can be anyone, do anything, create anything. But what you’ll find is a pull towards your true purpose, your unique expression. The path that is both for your highest good and for the good of all, with no hang ups on what some may consider the practicalities of the matrix.

Authentic expression is your resurrection.